"Ars Moriendi"
(The Art of Dying)
Awesome art by Matt Hughes
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The OTO Grand Lodge
This is my "occult" page. See lower left for 'spirituality' link.
Thelema
O Nuit, continuous one of Heaven, let it be ever thus;
that men speak not of Thee as One but as None;
and let them speak not of thee at all, since thou art continuous!
None, breathed the light, faint & faery, of the stars, and two.
For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union.
-- Liber al vel Legis
The Angel of My Soul
In March of 1994, after an ongoing period of 'anomalous' experience, and a previous experience of 'Nothingness' that had left me empty and profoundly suicidal, I had a profound experience:
I met what I called "the blue eyes of faith" ... Oh god! My god! He was my Lord! He was like... gods, like this energy that WAS me, that was the most sacred part of me... (more...)
The Calling
And then a week or so later:
I woke up with this image in my head, so terrifically strong, of three letters: OTO. One of many impressions is that it was a group I had joined, or was supposed to, or something, but I couldn't tell if it was "here" or just in a dream, if it was literal or symbolic... (click here for the rest)
The DreamTime Series
For reasons I am not clear on, there are a few kinds of dreams and "visions" I have off and on since around 1994. I have a few of these journalized. I keep thinking someday, when I understand more about myself and magick and cabala than I do now, this will all make more sense.
True Gold and the "Four"
The Vision of the Golden Bird, the Lion and the Snake
The Vision of the Crowning and the Cloak of Gold
The Vision of Black Cloak Wings, the Towers and the Golden Rope
The Vision (brief) of the ... whatever it was
A Cast of Many and an Order I Don't Know
The Dream of the Blue Pools and the Tall Thin Man
The Dream of 2 in 8 and 8 in 2 and the Dark Red Robes of a Dream Order
The Dream of the 50' Egyptian Gold Statue Man, and the Blackness Overcoming
The Dream of Israel's Portrait of Alistor and our Entwining "Tripod of Consciousness"
Other Experiences and/or Dreams of Note
Life phase: Polarities
Experience: Six and One and Seven
The Dream of the Lion with the Golden Eyes
Geometric Conceptual Linguistics
The Shape of Sound
Geometry Speak; Implant and the Entities
Waking Up
"Nuit" (some call this The Abyss?)
Michael or the Blue Eyes of Me
The Angel of my Soul