The Larger Aeon Round

I feel as if most of two months ‘off’ meditating is something I really needed. Like I was ‘overtraining’, spiritually. The arrival of the Largers in me really kicked my ass. I feel so much better now. Like I am ready for a new cycle.

I think I actually dreamed I blogged something that I didn’t, very recently, since I find no trace of it. By the time I realized I had not ‘really’ blogged it, it was too late and I’d forgotten it. That’s kinda funny.

As I was told to simply give them names, I have named the three Largers. Dominon (dahm’-ee-non), Pazyryk (Pa-zsur’-ik), and Rahleon (rah-lee’-on). The first one’s name sounds a little like what I’d come up with originally that I got laughed at for, sort of. And to me has some of the big/dominating element. The second is the name of an ancient people that the aspect of him I see, seems like he could be from. And the third is just a made up word, for the sun and a lion, which is a little of how I perceive him.

My sex drive has pretty much tripled from the time of their arrival. I thought it was some weird phase that would pass but it’s been a couple of months and it hasn’t yet. It’s almost shocking. And since I’m single it’s a little bit frustrating of course. My physical energy in general is slightly higher as well, though not so much that I feel like moving more, as that I simply don’t feel chronically exhausted as much as I used to; I just feel ‘ok’. Which is really quite a big deal of its own I admit. In my perfect world, if they were going to give me energy, it would be the sort I’d like to go do landscaping, squats and weight lifting with, but I guess you get what you get, and I am not complaining.

I am bringing the Largers into my Aeon rounds. Today I began with Dominon, and I introduced him to each of the Aeons in turn, and worked on merging with them, and then asking Dominon for merge and for help in better integration with the Aeon. Since I’m told they are my infrastructure, so to speak, and how well I can absorb the Largers will depend on how well I am integrated with the Aeons, it seemed practical to see if the big guys could help with the little guys–so to speak. I have the feeling I don’t know how it went; that a lot of whatever resulted was not apparent to me but might be over time. It was kind of hard work and took a long time. There were a couple of times that I had a clear sense of merge but on those occasions, I was really, really wanting it, really emotionally pushing, I think that’s why.

During this long weekend, when surely I should have been doing 20 other far more constructive things, instead, I re-read my blog. Of course, over half of it was brand new… I was utterly astonished… I didn’t remember it at all. I have such a major case of state-specific consciousness! One thing I found interesting when it struck me though: I’m always complaining about that, how it is so chronic, so common. And yet, I didn’t forget the Largers. There have been times the last few months when I knew of them but forgot, momentarily, the detail of our meeting, but it returned, or when I read it, it was not surprising, and I didn’t forget “them” the way I have pretty much everybody else, repeatedly. This alone sets them apart from most my other experiences.

In re-reading many experiences, I found myself wondering why I hadn’t been braver; why it was so difficult to do certain things; why I had such resistance to a topic or identity; I felt as if I am not as courageous as I want to be.

I took some notes while reading, of things I want to meditate on, or remembered and found worth re-considering:

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The Aeons are in 3 groups. Nero Taan Bolehren Marcan are definitely the ones clearest, most like me in some way. Nedlund, Laelee, Calme, and Hot Amanakhaton are most unlike me (energies), as the issues with their forms make clear. Ithikah, Ray, L’Anna, Jared, sort of in between, very loving to me, more like me than the 2nd group, less like me than first. I find it interesting to see how instant and easy it was to divide them that way, as I hadn’t thought of them separately before.

From Inner Guide: This work isn’t just about archetypes. Open to spontaneity. Be flexible. Insights will come. Record them when you can.

A prayer I’d used for Aeons: Dear God And Everyone Else Who Can Help,  please help increase, intensify, expand and clarify my understanding and integration with ____, help us to improve our communion and communication, to evolve in the best ways together. Amen.

A note on a strong result of 4 Aeons and Sun: it had never occurred to me to merge with my Aeons while also merging with my planets.

Are all the elements the chakras of earth??

Idea: Ask the Private Oracle what I can do with IG, or how to ask for it, that is more than or different than the work she and I already do together. Maybe ask for just one example, something that she would like also, something that would be really good for me.

LAELEE sparks the ‘alter’ energy. Meditate on that.

COPPER!!!!  I have run into the reference and idea of meditating on the element copper so many times it’s ridiculous. Get to it already.

Do cleansing visualization before workings.

A comment made to me at one point by someone internal: Bewilderness book II, until 2006, and III, from then on, should be made. Then edit this into a new whole, focusing on the spiritually-related experiences as you now and will better understand them. Let it be a modern day grimoire of how to get there from here, using today’s symbols and personality, not just words in ancient books, cryptic meanings buried in math. This will publish if you choose.

Do a meditation on the black-eyed dream man who pulled me away from Marcan when we met.

To nero:And what do you work with me on again? (I felt myself ‘resisting’ and ‘blocking’ in the lower right of my torso. I can’t explain how/why I felt it there but I knew I wouldn’t be able to “hear” him if he told me. I felt as if he ‘changed tactics’ upon us mutually realizing this.) Also: when working with him in the Tower with IG, one of the major issues was a huge metal knife through him from the back of the lower right torso. Meditate on this area and him.

I finally had the presence of mind to ask IG for whatever archetype could best help me work through this meditation. Then I wondered why I never thought to ask for that kind of archetype before. Too obvious, maybe? It was an ordinary guy who I was super comfortable with. — try this again.

Maccu Piccu — the stones like The Four… is there a larger pattern in that larger collection of stuff, that is also reflective? Would I see the 12, the largers, etc.??

Numbers as archetypes.

Hot Amanakhaton – ‘jiri’ is his personal nickname he tells me.

What am I to do with outer guides?? Try using them for something like chakra work, they used to do that with me eons ago. There’s got to be some good for them.

At one point, I found myself in this arch-dream and I went, “Hey! Hey, I remember this now! This is where I was last night! This-” and an abreaction so severe that my entire body spasmed wildly hit me. I forgot everything except that last thought. — meditate specifically on this.

Also, meditate specifically on helping the body to only dump me into a daydream and not into unconsciousness.

Also, work out a ‘mental toolset’ ala Bandler and NLP to deal with the issue when I keep getting toggled out by some neural block.

MUCH more Tek work!! Start with liver again.

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I’m completely out of the habit but I hope to be working on inner things regularly now, again, as I feel healed and ready to begin anew.

P