The Consortium

It has been difficult for me to understand or absorb and accept this. I met a number of entities I was given to understand were “part of me.” Like literally, they “composed me.” I felt initially that it would be some multiple of 4 (can’t remember why). I thought perhaps 16, but it turned out to be 12.

I initially called them the Coalition and then the Consortium, as that seemed more appropriate. When I asked them what I should call them, they told me they were “Aeons.” I argued that this is a span of time, and not the right word, and besides it sounded occultish and bothered me. They repeated this every time I asked, though. I finally accepted it.

Later in an internet search I found a reference — to my simply agog-level astonishment — to something that uses this word. It was some ‘Gnostic’ work called the Apocryphon, although I think the interpretation of that is best done as if it is a covertly symbolic series and not literal. I later discovered that had I read more of Jung’s work long ago, which I’d wanted to and never had, I would have come into contact with more of this concept. How the specific numbers and terms got into some 1000+ year old stuff, I have no idea.

I had intense resistance to them, and it took me a long time to finally perceive them all. I still have difficulty with it often, some I still can’t really perceive directly, not well anyway. Nero was the first I met. LaeLee is the one I’m least integrated with.

Around mid-2011 I had a very powerful dream where they kind of… where they epitomized ‘definition’, incredibly compressed aeons of time, of space, and of concept/energy, and then that ‘definition’ just ‘dissolved’ and they all became one. I don’t know what that means, but it does seem to be the case that as one of them once told me, “it’s supposed to be seamless” — most the time anymore I don’t perceive one of them communicating with me, I just have a lot of thoughts, all of which are mine but which are having a conversation with each other, as clearly ‘different perspectives’.

But when I have worked directly with them, it’s been interesting. I feel very affectionate about them. They are all equals to me, at the least. It’s like we are all equally part of the same shape, but they are each ‘facets’. I am the all-facets, but my degree of integration with them determines how much of my “infrastructure” I am truly clear with and aligned with and have the power for. I later met entities I call the ‘Largers’, of which I am like an Aeon. They say that my ability to work with them depends on how well I am integrated with these 12.

They are of three ‘natures’. I don’t have any more detail than that. When that info came across I got the three groupings, the columns below.