I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

~~~
Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.
~~~

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne


In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe


Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne



Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'


The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"


Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.




Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


ABOUT ME


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne


When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

Aeons of the Universe (Tarot)

My understanding and relationship with the Tarot has changed greatly since I began ‘interworlds’ imaginal work. Initially I ignored Tarot because I had no interest in it for divination, and I admit, I didn’t take it very seriously. I treated astrology with about the same attitude. Both of these qualify as ‘archetypes’ quite officially. But my definition of archetype had no boundaries — it was any energy you wanted combined into something that you could interact with or within (I need a better word than ‘archetype’ for that I suppose).

I was told to meditate on a card in an inner-experience. So I did, and it was actually the hardest thing I ever did. It took months, and multiple meditations, and was more than a little overwhelming. (This was Knight of Wands.) I gradually did another, then another. Although at that time, I had already moved a little bit into sometimes “letting InnerGuide drive” the experience — not using the ‘typical’ archetype meditation scripted format — I did these with the simple structure initially.

It boggled my mind how powerful they were. It was as if I’d taken the average impact of a typical “archmed” as I call them, and dialed up inherent power to 10. And I would get offbeat things that surprised me, like being able to “recognize” an energy I had met before (such as Works {3 of disks}) even if it were in some other meditation, and finding myself in what seemed like whole “worlds” for each card, and yet the suits seeming to have a similarity in this.

I realized at one point that I had misunderstood everything. I had thought these were cards. I thought they were just some-guy’s way of philosophically dividing up metaphysical ideas. I thought I was meditatively working with “my idea about his idea about X.” This was completely wrong.

There is a certain pattern to the universe, of which we are a part, and which is a part of us. It is a very important, fundamental pattern, and humans throughout time have been attempting to replicate that pattern outside of them, roughly as we do. Tarot is this attempt to recreate the ‘feel’ of this pattern, the intuitive understanding of the structure of it all.

This is not limited to any one people or culture or time, and can be represented in different creative ways. The cards become labels, name-tags, for ‘this piece of the structure’ you might say. We are recognizing that-energy of that-pattern, when we say “three of disks.” But what those labels/cards identify is more profoundly vast and powerful than anything we could wrap our brain or our words around.

In the end, Tarot is not about the cards at all — or rather, I guess it can be, but that is a ‘surface’ use, and there is so much more potential — it is about the recognition of, and interaction with, the universe.  How well any given deck does this, and how well the individual using that deck ‘intuitively allows’ the actual energy to work through the witness or intermediary of the cards themselves, that’s a variable.

When I say the cards are labels or name-tags, I want to add, though, that at the energetic level, there is no separation. That’s a delusion our languages and paradigms and outer-worlds give us. In the interworlds there is no such thing as a ‘word’ being a ‘pointer’ to something else. Like X is ‘here’ and Y is ‘there.’ It doesn’t really work that way. The word IS the something-else. Every seeming “representative” of that something-else, IS that something-else’s energy. There is no separation.

The Tarot is alive. It’s more than merely alive, that energy is the fundamental of “manifest existence.” And it’s vast. They are each as powerful as gods-little-g — but still very powerful gods-little-g even in that category — each combined suit, even moreso. So when you go knock on the door of Ace of Disks, you’re not just doing something in your head related to a card related to an idea. You are having a relationship with a gigantically powerful entity.

Each Tarot identity by the way, is a dynamic.

(Each element in the Periodic Table of Elements, I was once told, is a quality.)

The Tarot are Aeons of the Universe. That means that as a system, they span the energy of the entire universe, and they each hold all-of-it, but each of them focuses “more upon one part of it” which is their focus. The variance in decks, cards and names and more, has a slight effect on our ‘experience’ of it only because it is the filter-framework we’re focusing upon. But not much.

WE are the universe. But it’s the “implication” which affects us most: the powerful energy of any given Tarot card is actually making up a good chunk of our “experiential reality” — including our body, our events and environments, etc.

So when you improve your relationship with a given Tarot identity, it is akin to cleaning up that part of the universe, and because there is no separation, that means quite literally “your life.” All the “related dynamics” in your life will change based on your relationship.

I had a “sponsored insight” once and wrote down:

The Tarot is a map of the manifest universe, and the Tree of Life is a map of the divine structure, and the two of them conjoined are a map of the Soul. Large capital S. The soul IS everything {that we ‘know’}: it is the geometry of the planets and the cells, the motion of the tides and the cycles of friendship, the minerals and the butterflies. Everything, and every perspective.

Suddenly it seems very important to me that I map out and work through the entire tarot in meditation format, that I work through the ‘paths and sephira’ and that I really work on allowing personal change to happen with this.

— from Musing on QBL, the Four, and Geekiness

There is no such thing as a ‘negative’ Tarot identity. It reflects the universe and any given identity simply reflects a given collection of energy. Much like looking at a picture on a computer screen, and you point to some arbitrary place and zoom in and look at exactly what RGB color that pixel is. It simply “is.” It’s simply “the energy that is there.” It’s not fundamentally bad or good. Most of the seeming negatives are “transition” dynamics — those push a crux of probability. The reality is we are “dancing” with all the Tarot identities as part of our lives. As friends we may agree to dance apart. Either way, we are still dancing; we merely decide how we will do it.

Eventually I mostly-abandoned the traditional format for these meditations and simply let my IG lead. I usually find myself in a different environment of some kind. Sometimes it’s another world quite realistically, I call these parallels, I consider them real but on a different frequency beat-pattern than us, such as with Knight of Cups. Sometimes there is offbeat interaction that blends with other energies like Two of Disks. They have improved and are sometimes very interesting, even with leading-in experiences and follow-on dreams, such as Ten of Wands.

I love the Thoth tarot — although there are others as beautiful or moreso, this one draws me more than the others I’ve seen — so that is what I use as a model. I’ve had many experiences I didn’t understand (this sums up most of my spiritual life actually) and later realized that symbolism was in a card somewhere in that deck, which I find fascinating.

Not all my meditations go well or even go at all. Most I do get through… eventually. Some are brief and easy. Some are horrible and take eons. The most common side effect is avoidance and forgetfulness. I must blog and promptly or any new energy experience falls out of my head forever.

I describe my  meditations below. I am working on getting through all the suits and then the trumps.

LIST OF TAROT MEDITATIONS

(usually ‘inner guide’ archetype format. Not always.)

DISKS:

Ace and the Royals of Disks

Ace and the Royals of Disks

Ace of Disks  → Med 1 (opening)
2 of Disks – ChangeMed 1
3 of Disks – WorksMed 1
4 of Disks – PowerMed 1
5 of Disks – WorryMed 1
6 of Disks – SuccessMed 1
7 of Disks – FailureMed 1
8 of Disks – PrudenceMed 1
9 of Disks – GainMed 1
10 of Disks – WealthMed 1
Princess of Disks → Med 1 | Med 2
Prince of Disks → Med 1
Queen of Disks → Med 1
Knight of Disks → Med 1 | Med 2
Ace of Disks → Med 2 (closing)

SWORDS:

Ace and the Royals of Swords

Ace and the Royals of Swords

Ace of Swords  → Med 1 | Med 2
2 of Swords – Peace
3 of Swords – Sorrow
4 of Swords – Truce
5 of Swords – Defeat
6 of Swords – Science
7 of Swords – Futility
8 of Swords – Interference
9 of Swords – Cruelty
10 of Swords – Ruin
Princess of Swords
Prince of Swords  → Med 1
Queen of Swords
Knight of Swords

CUPS:

Ace and the Royals of Cups

Ace and the Royals of Cups

Ace of Cups → Med 1 (Opening)
Two of Cups – LoveMed 1
Three of Cups – AbundanceMed 1
Four of Cups – LuxuryMed 1
Five of Cups – DisappointmentMed 1
Six of Cups – PleasureMed 1
Seven of Cups – DebauchMed 1
Eight of Cups – IndolenceMed 1
Nine of Cups – HappinessMed 1
Ten of Cups – SatietyMed 1
Princess of Cups → Med 1
Prince of Cups → Med 1
Queen of Cups → Med 1
Knight of Cups → Med 1
Ace of Cups → Med 1 (Closing)

WANDS:

Ace and the Royals of Wands

Ace and the Royals of Wands

Ace of Wands
2 of Wands – Dominion
3 of Wands – Virtue
4 of Wands – Completion
5 of Wands – Strife
6 of Wands – Victory
7 of Wands – Valour
8 of Wands – Swiftness
9 of Wands – Strength
10 of Wands – OppressionMed 1
Princess of Wands → Med 1
Prince of Wands → Med 1 | Med 2
Queen of Wands → Med 1
Knight of Wands → Med 1 | Med 2 | Med 3 | Med 4 | Med 5 | Med 6

TRUMPS:
Trumps: 0 – The Fool
Trumps: I – The Magus
Trumps: II – The Highpriestess
Trumps: III – The Empress
Trumps: IV – The Emperor
Trumps: V – The Hierophant
Trumps: VI – The Lovers
Trumps: VII – The Chariot
Trumps: VIII – AdjustmentMed 1 | Med 2 | Med 3
Trumps: IX – The Hermit
Trumps: X – Fortune
Trumps: XI – Lust
Trumps: XII – The Hanged man
Trumps: XIII – Death
Trumps: XIV – Art
Trumps: XV – The Devil
Trumps: XVI – The TowerMed 1 | Med 2 | Med 3
Trumps: XVII – The Star
Trumps: XVIII – The Moon
Trumps: XIX – The Sun
Trumps: XX – The Aeon
Trumps: XXI – The UniverseMed 1 | Med 2

I hope at some point to add other things to my meditation efforts. Including the ‘paths’ of the QBLH ‘Tree of Life,’ the chemistry Table of Elements, basic geometry shapes, numbers, letters, astrology, astronomy, and so on. I’ll need to live a long life to pull off even half of this.

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