Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists and I forget it all.
So I blog, re-read, remember.

I've wandered paths & influences, but now I have no doctrine but the side-effects of my experiences. I've a a spirit twin/mate and we make a larger self; I'm 4th of 4 (he is 3rd), which make a larger self; there are 12 identities I call The Consortium who combine in mine. Chakras (and their mates) are entities. We are STARS and spirituality is cosmology.

I practice 'active' meditation which varies in style and detail. Some 'similar' forms are called shamanic journey, conscious dreaming, active imagination, inner guide work, etc.

Spiritual growth is like all others: you absorb, become aware, and via love (sympathetic rapport and desire to become or absorb) and will (directed intent), that energy becomes part of your singular sense of identity. The 'growth' is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self. Diversity is Legion; Singularity is the I AM. None of this is new or unique. It's simply "unconscious and slow" for most people. I figure I can't help doing it, so I would rather do it well than badly.