So here’s an irony. I found the beginning of my ‘IG meds’ just before work ate my life. Of course, I have no memory of this really… distant and dim at best. If I don’t blog and re-read constantly, until I’ve re-read something several times I can’t retain it and barely remember it even reading it. Once I’ve gone over it a few times, I’m able to retain the pattern. I don’t know if that’s state-specific consciousness or what.
About time I got back to my commitment to IG.
Meditations for the day: IG1,
7dec2010 IG1. > I had an open/incomplete med from two days ago. I asked her for a diff setting so I wouldn’t invalidate myself as I hadn’t been able to ‘feel’ anything in that med and felt I was imagining it all. So I got a different setting. I found myself walking down this corridor with no doors but one at the end and the end was just totally open, and at the end I was about 80 feet above a huge warehouse floor. There were men in hardhats all over but one unusually large (like larger than human) man just near underneath, and a gust of wind blew me out and I imagined ‘floating’ so I landed unhurt right in front of him.
I did all the typical stuff with him but it didn’t change him at all. I did get some rushing out of the water and wind but barely. I talked with him, are you my Larger, as I call them? and he said yes. I said, how come I don’t feel you at all? The others… they were so powerful. You, it’s like… you’re not real. He said, You’re not letting my energy through, is all. I said, Can you help me let you through? He seemed to try but the result was either not strong or not immediate. I formally asked him to keep working with me at all times until we are able to fully integrate. Then I asked for us to trade energy constructs we could work on integration with.
He ‘wove’ this net of golden light, like a cat’s cradle kind of thing with his hands, and the string of light had little brighter white specs in the gold. I felt as if he were literally giving me something related to the stars, it seemed both beautiful and cosmic. He made it fairly large and then he put it in my body, and it expanded to fill all of my body. I got some decent rushing from that, a couple waves of it, so apparently something worked. I made him a small but dense little energy ball labeled “Me.” and put it near the outside of his heart chakra.
Back to work now.
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