Hope you’re doing well girl.

I can understand why the other people would want to capture the people from your world, but why would the other group want to kill them?

Actually, I’ve had these situations in my life. I recall one person, who is a very good friend, called and said, “Somehow you dropped out of my life, and I miss you and want to see you again.” And that’s all it took to rekindle the relationship, just that flat-out acknowledgement that it happened, that it wasn’t intended, and that there was a sincere desire to reconnect. This is just my opinion based on having read your blog for a few years, but it seems that your danger point is often just after you make the decision to change or to be active. That’s when life explodes (suggesting that WOW, you have a subconscious that is extremely powerful–it can rearrange your physical life! If only it could be harnessed for good, what amazing things would you accomplish?). I wonder if you can put some safeguards into place, like enlisting friends to help keep you on track, leaving reminders or motivators around where you’re likely to find them, etc.

I sympathize with the war. I found an old high school journal entry in which I was bemoaning my lack of time and I was rigidly setting out a schedule for myself in which every hour of every day was filled with something productive. I was fifteen! I have been doing this for YEARS, this obnoxious dance of “I am so pathetic because I haven’t done enough, let me make this rigid schedule and then not adhere to it because it’s just dreadful.” I have to accept that it never works, and that it’s actually a waste of time. I plan to meditate about this inability to complete what I want to do and see if I can gain any insight, because clearly my long-standing technique doesn’t work and is now a futile pattern.

Ya know, I’ve thought of the YHVH (and it would figure I’d be the Fallen, LOL). The only thing really clear, and this from the early days with The Four, is that when we are combined, we compose the universe. Every possible relationship. I also see the four (and our 7 when combined) as being like those Vedic deities with all the arms and such. And once we got this huge statue that had four asian-looking figures back to back seated in yoga pose and above their heads were three ‘layers’ of energy, each like a fat disk, each one larger, and then four beams of energy came out and “manifested” us. The other 3 do seem to be incarnate, so I’m not sure how they’d be separated in the realm of whatever when I’m not, but I admit all this stuff fries my brain. :-)

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The other day I was thinking about your visions of the cells inside your body petitioning you for water in one of your posts (the people dying in a drought turning out to be the cells inside your kidneys, I think?) I was musing on what I, as the head of this tribe of live beings I call “my body”, might command them all to do. I decided the best general order to give cells would be “Metabolize!”

At that moment I was struck with a vision of myself sitting at the computer, reading news on the Internet. I seemed to be a component part of the nervous system of the world, and was “metabolizing” information. The command I gave my smaller parts was also the command that had been given to me by the larger self of which I am a component. As above, so below! Thanks for the cool experience which reading your blog gave me. :)

1) I wish you were also an artist so you could draw these things. I want to see the chakra landscape you wrote about.
2)I might have mentioned this before. It’s a pretty interesting geometric documentary, very cool animations: http://www.dimensions-math.org/ I get lost at the same exact place every time, but I love to watch it every so often.