I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne

In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe

Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne

Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'

The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"

Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.

Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne

When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

The Four Focus-In; Body-Talk; the Powers

The Four focus into me for a couple days. Body tells me why the edema. I finally go ask The Powers for what I want.

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The gods of Tarot

Aeons of the Universe are gods. Little-g.

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Aeons of the Universe

The other night in the Three of Cups meditation, Abundance told me that Nero was an Aeon of me and she was an Aeon of the Universe.

I see. So the tarot cards are, humorously, kinda like nametags for the Aeons.

Of the Universe!


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Thoth Tarot Ace of Disks II

I stared down at my palms, thinking: maybe this is a power tool as well.

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Letters and Numbers and Suits, O My

I might add that I have, in the past in dreams and some meditations, actually run into things specific to a given color or letter or number. Particularly the numbers 4 and 8. I just never before thought about those individual things as identities, a collection of consciousness assigned a title. Like they were some spiritual, cosmological version of an inanimate object. Maybe it is me that is the idiot all this time.

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Tarot Knight of Disks

Thoth Tarot Knight of Disks

I went over to the next-nearest, a group of three poles, equally next to each other, about 10 feet high. They were the same as the other — a pole about two inches diameter, made of something that felt like a cross between metal and wood (unfamiliar material or composite). Each of them at the top had the same thing: a dark red suede-like fabric that covered the top foot or so of the pole, like a fabric cylinder just a bit larger than the pole, that slipped on, and at the bottom was a ‘fringe.’ Color is the symbol of 1st of Four (Senior), I note to myself.

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Tarot Queen of Disks

Thoth Tarot Queen of Disks

“We have been working together a long time,” she said — and I suddenly remembered I had taken out this card to meditate on it many months ago — “and in another sense, your whole life. Walk with me.”

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Tarot Revisiting Works

I started running the 4 elements against us both, when I realized, I know this feeling, I know this! Where do I know this energy from??

And then I got it: I wasn’t working on the “thing” I was focused on. The real “thing” I was working on was the DYNAMIC that it was demonstrating for me. The turn that slightly-stuck and slid, it was that — the whole motion — which made me realize where I knew the “feel” of this energy from —

The tarot. It is 3 of Disks, Works. I was awed! Only once before have I ever recognized the feel of the energy of a place before …

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Tarot Prince of Disks

Thoth Tarot Prince of Disks

I had the realization that (a) he is really very powerful, he is a huge chunk of energy of the universe — a collection of energy assigned a title — and (b) that he is everywhere in me already. I mean that’s a given but most of the time I feel separated from the archs as if I need to ‘do’ something to resolve what amount to my resistances or whatever. … I had a realization during this: he lives through me. That simultaneous to MY life experience, HE as an identity was having a certain life experience that was based on the conglomerate of all the parts of me and my reality that were him…

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Tarot Princess of Disks, Take 2

Thoth Tarot Princess of Disks

There was such an ‘organic’ element of all the metal that was literally “sewn into her.” It wasn’t just like weapons or something had punctured her. It was like something dark and insidious had grown into and through her. It was not “of” her–it had not become her or changed her–it had merely imprisoned her in such a terrible way. For some reason, the perception that the “black iron vines” were functioning like an organic creature instead of just an inert thing, added a degree of slightly nauseating horror to it difficult to describe.

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Tarot Princess of Disks, Take 1

Thoth Tarot Princess of Disks

I walked around the side of her studying her, wondering if perhaps her being some earth-of-earth symbol might make me already integrated with her and so maybe there wasn’t really anything that needed doing to work with the energy, maybe it was already ok with me. “You seem like you’re ok,” I said to her as I continued around the side and into the alcove itself. “You –” And then I saw it. Why she was so still. Out of the ground of the plateau in the alcove had grown these thick heavy vines that were instead made of black iron. They had grown up and literally into her. She was chained to the ground, to the chair.

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Tarot Ten 10 of Disks (Wealth)

Thoth Tarot Ten of Disks (Wealth)

So then this thing ‘grew’ in the now-forest-clearing environment, an elevated round pavilion but very small, and a chair right in the middle of it. The chair was trying to find a pattern and every time I felt we had one and that would be it, the top would insist on becoming larger and rounder until eventually what we had was something a little like a ‘casual throne’ but the ‘back’ of the chair was like a 12 foot diameter circle.

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