I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne

In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe

Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne

Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'

The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"

Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.

Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne

When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

Sprouting Underground

Recently I had two instances of an insight or experience that explained some mystery of experience I had over 20 years ago.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Sprouting Underground

A Viewer’s Manifesto


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My Universe

I felt a sudden, powerful ‘inner urging’ to sit down and write through my beliefs about psi. Formally put it on paper so I had to look at it. From the base of my most mystical underpinnings to the reason for my most mundane practice and how it all fit together. I could feel it suddenly needed to “be made fully conscious.” (Will make the manifesto the next post.)

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at My Universe

Denial, Viewing, the Language of Chakras

Even I cannot maintain irrational denial against that much evidence. Obviously I have some very serious issues with my integration with the energy underlying psi and creativity.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Denial, Viewing, the Language of Chakras

Skating the 8’s

I feel like there is some corollary (analogy?) to this in metaphysics. Like, you’ve got to get some basics down–or simply have them innately, as some people seem to–like chakra health for example–before you stand a chance at truly exploring your potential.

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Stumbling In

I feel like I’ve been unplugged from myself, from my soul, during the last six months of doing nothing but work every waking hour.

I took last weekend off. I didn’t work Monday night, or last night, and I’ll do a little more tonight but otherwise I haven’t really worked tonight either. I have a specific goal to try and force the work I must do, to get done with the resources I have: me 10 hours a day and three full-time contractors and whatever vendor resources I can outsource to. So far, this is not working at all, and I’m panicking over all the work I’m supposed to be getting done… and isn’t getting done. But I have faith that if I really want to work normal hours, and I have some resources, that I can make it work. I just have to not let the initial panic during adjustment period send me back to working all the time, or circumstance will not be forcing me to find smart solutions, since I’ll be solving it with the extra time (‘hard’ solution) instead.


It’s still rare for me to intentionally expose myself to UFOlogy lit, despite many experiences clearly in that category. Recently I read “Into the Fringe” by Karla Turner and put some notes about a few little syncs in Bewilderness, over on my Red Cairo blog: http://www.palyne.com/blog.redcairo/into-the-fringe/


I hope within several days to be back to meditating and posting here.


Recognition, Novelty, Psi, and Chakras

I was only about 40% asleep last night when someone, I don’t know who, decided to do some mental walk-through on the concept of mental processing and in particular, in a remote viewing (psychic) context.

I drifted through, as if being led down a garden path of the mind, a variety of memories, from all my favorite sessions. Then I drifted through the memories of sessions done on the same target and how they were different, even with similar data, and sometimes I recognized the target in the session. And then the times I totally did not recognize that I had a target I’d had before. Then I drifted through the zillion times I had thought I recognized a target “or its nature or something in it” based on data, and was wrong. Then I went back to the previous where I had accurately recognized the target, and it was like a comparison of sorts between the two.

It took me a bit to ‘get it’. And I swear, I guess I’m an idiot, but I think most of the grokking didn’t happen until sometime the next day, as if the back of my brain was working this out while the rest of me went about life. But when I did start to absorb it finally, it seemed so obvious.

Target recognition happens at a completely different place in my body, than ‘recognition’ in ordinary life.

The latter (in regular life) is usually visual, sometimes audible. When that’s the

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Novelty in Energy Work

It is a little like ditching the standard formula prayer (dear god/you’re cool/gimme stuff/in Jesus’s name/I’m done) and working on truly being spontaneous and inspired and free-form and making every communication genuinely from the heart and unique to that moment.

I did an archmed yesterday on “whatever I am most resistant about,” which I then modified, “I mean, which I am capable of working with,” because I suddenly had the feeling that ‘the most resistant’ thing would just fall out of my brain because I am, well, that resistant, haha. The archetype was so interesting. I was surprised I could see it at all let alone well. Then I was surprised that I found it pretty, which is rare to doesn’t-even-happen for things I am usually resistant to.

The figure was like human but instead of a head there was this fat flat post like where the neck would be and then instead of a head, that post sprouted two wide saturns-rings-like round shapes (half on each) that came around and left some open space in front. The flat open-front ring-like shape was sparkly deep-blue glitter with other sparkly glitters of metallics and deep green. I was so surprised that I found it so pretty, as I’d expected something either hard to see or yucky. [Later edit 24MAR2012: I just noticed something odd; the rich deep sparkly color of this, and my sense of beauty, reminds me greatly of my brief experience (recent) seeing the Heart Chakra. I don’t suppose this could have been a chakra or an archetype ‘influenced by’ the translated visual of one?)

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RV Notes; notes with Dor

A few misc. items relating to RV/psi, and a meditation (ok just sitting around) with the (late… the Four removed him from me/us) internal thoughtform Dor.

Journal Fragment, February 25, 1998

I heard one of my outer guides! I could never hear them before! OK so it’s probably ‘me’ but I could never even hear myself-as-them before.

He said… “Go to the plane that is right at heart level.” The one that I was using awhile ago to sense something… I forget what. I visualize it like a flat sheet of light that connects to the bottom of my chest, sorta.

He said… something like, “That is where the real RV data can be {found/acquired}.”

I had been planning to do an archmed on RV in a little while but he answered my question I guess!

Journal Fragment, Date Unknown

RV Haiku

we seek evidence for the coincidence of our matching data

Journal Fragment, November 10, 2004

Last night while relaxing I had the feel that a man ‘sat down inside me’ like a ghost or psychic. I thought, well perhaps I’m imagining this.

But then I realized that I had completely quit breathing in response, and surely my body wouldn’t spontaneously react so strongly if there was nothing to it.


Journal Fragment, May 17, 2005

I had this dream. This is like ‘abstracted through 7 levels’ to get to words, so it sounds like one trite thing on

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at RV Notes; notes with Dor

Internal Katas

So the recent directive or understanding, is that I am integrating my “inner world” with my “outer world”. I am to let all the parts of myself “show me” internally the nature of what I am experiencing externally, which should also allow me to work directly with that energy (such as to change it).

I turns out I was just starting this once, long ago, from a different perspective. But after awhile I quit doing the internal work and forgot all about it.

Journal fragment, 11 January 2006

I’ll call this ‘Internal Katas’

Three ways I can work on an energy pattern and/or my relationship with it.

1 – Create an archetype. This is a relationship “reality” pattern, etc. on the outside, only.

2 – Get inside that matrix, e.g. merge with it, and then work on the new me from inside that.

3 – Find that pattern within myself. Everything outside, sources from inside. “Replicate locally the nonlocal pattern by revealing the existing points-patterns internally which match.”

I understood: The latter is the root of psi practices (like remote viewing).

Now it’s my job to practice. The kata: look inside for the pattern, creature, body-effect, which matches things in my outer reality.


Rambling 04Dec09

I have a variety of e-post-it notes that I’d wanted to collect here, so it’s archived, together, and later I can find it. Many different topics here, copied from those or narrative.


My memory is so bizarrely “iffy” when it comes to this entire topic that if I didn’t blog everything (to the point of boring even myself) it would be gone forever. Not only does re-reading my blog remind me of things that I had forgotten and their details, but often it reminds me for the fourth time. Or more! Is that weird or what. It just falls out of my brain.

It’s like that movie ’50 First Dates’ where the woman has brain damage and every day is the same day from years ago and she has zero memory of anything since. So she wakes up each morning to a video that explains her situation, shows her her kids, and so on! I’m not quite THAT bad, but when it comes to remembering my “shamanic” life, so to speak, at any given time I have pieces, not the whole.

On the other hand, I notice in talking with other people that even if they record their dreams or meditations they tend to forget them and in re-reading them, finding their dream log later, some are refreshers they’d forgotten and some they don’t remember at all. Maybe this is normal.

…or not. I’ll say more about this later but I think I’m going to do a

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Abreactions in Archmeds and RV

At one point, I started studying people around me whom I was not hypnotizing, and came to the interesting conclusion that perhaps many people abreact quite a lot in fact. But it’s such a small thing, few of us even notice it. We haven’t been trained to do so, to pay attention to that kind of thing, to have any idea it might mean something. So in a way, our body is constantly talking to us, we just don’t hear it. Of course, muscle spasms do also happen for musculature reasons that are not necessarily related to any deep psychological meaning. Sometimes a muscle is just a muscle, you might say. […]

In archetype meditations I have often run into abreactions. The most difficult meditations I’ve ever done have always been accompanied by plenty of abreactions — often instantly when a certain idea, image or concept comes up. Here’s a few quotes from old blog posts here to give some real examples of how this comes about. I admit I don’t usually make a note of it except in the more extreme cases, but it’s not an uncommon thing in more minor degree.

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