I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne

In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe

Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne

Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'

The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"

Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.

Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne

When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV


It’s been an ongoing challenge, attempting to break free of the simplistic limitations of my meditation format, without simply replacing that model with something else just as limited.

I work to “let go” of some assumptions, only to find myself lost, because I don’t have any assumptions.

I’ve had cause to see, for example, that my Steinbrecher model was workable, a good start, but humorously limited and simple. So much so, that there aren’t any words for how much so. I wanted to let go of that.

I’ve had cause to see that certain assumptions I carried were interfering with what IG could do with me. For example that I expected everything to be a surprise in some “novel” fashion. If anything were to come through as something obviously symbolic, it wouldn’t be surprising and novel, and I would reject it. Since this work is all about symbolic, that has been a problem.

Or, it just had to be “cool.” Dragon symbol: ok. Fairy symbol: not ok. Sheesh.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Filtering


She put something on me, and in my hands, that almost felt like ‘centurion gear’, but I was sure I had to be imagining that or misunderstanding, so I ignored it, and turned around. A guy wearing gear a lot like mine nearly took my head off with a sword. I rolled back and ran away, tuning back into the sense of the clothes and sword so I could defend myself. OK I grant my archetypes are sometimes “proactively hostile” that’s true, especially if IG chooses them, for some reason — maybe those are just the ones I have the worst relationship to — but maybe that was some kind of lesson about not ignoring her and assuming what I perceived was wrong!

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Soldiering

The Spaces Between

I have noticed, over time, that I cyclically have a phase where my eyes keep unfocussing. Where I will realize that a moment ago I was doing something but now I’m neither doing nor thinking, and my eyes are open, but completely unfocused.

After awhile it starts to bother me that I am living my life in trance and I start forcing myself to stop that. I don’t know why it’s more common in certain cycles.

I made an effort to meditate on several occasions yesterday. Somehow the moment I began, there was this whole list of things that seemed impossible to get through without getting mentally lost. The simple cleansing visualization kept doing me in. I never even got to the point of starting the actual meditation part with Inner Guide. I was intending to do Six of Disks (“Success”).

Today I will get to it, let alone through it.


I found this quote from Jung that I feel concurs with what I was saying about astrology in my previous post — that there is clearly a correspondence between the solar system and humans, but that I feel it is a parallel secondary effect — certainly I do not feel the stars are a ’cause’ as seems to be the popular view. Jung wrote, in 1947:

Astrology is of particular interest to the psychologist, since it contains a sort of psychological experience which we call projected–this means that we find the psychological facts as it were in the

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Tarot The Tower, Take 1

Thoth Tarot Trumps XVI The Tower

I felt scared. I don’t know why for sure. I mean, something about the Aeons and the Four thinking this was important, and Nero & Co. making sure I was ready and such, just suddenly was frightening. Why do I never think this stuff can hurt me? I wondered to myself. If it can help, it could hurt. Maybe sometimes there is a level of working with stuff where, if you really screw it up, it has some kind of consequences. I mean it doesn’t make sense to believe that a good med can totally change your body, life, and whole reality, but a bad med would just not matter at all. … I was getting the impression of visual via another route, via a kinesthetic like sense. It was very surreal. It had a shape and a twist in it that was just… it was just wrong, in that saturn-green-weird sort of way, I don’t mean wrong like evil, no I mean like, some geometry that is just not native to the dimension it’s being viewed within. … I thought about telling it hello, and saying the usual — “Welcome. I honor you. Thank you for talking with it.” But by the time I was halfway through that thought and the instant I began to imagine saying it — I went unconscious.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Tarot The Tower, Take 1

The Pattern of a Problem

I was just laying here, half asleep with my eyes closed, listening to the ‘celtic woman’ music guilty for putting me to sleep so fast I’d left my dinner sitting in a bowl nearby and never got a single bite. I was mentally browsing between a dream I’d had earlier (long past in the night), and problems of the world today, such as current war issues.

I started to understand that there was some relationship between these two things, but I had no idea what and wasn’t up to thinking that hard.

I was in the middle of the foreign question when I suddenly saw a small solution to it. Not a big solution to everything, but a solution to the tiny piece that I had been thinking about without meaning to, at that moment. I was a little surprised at it, as it was one of those things I might never have thought of but once I did it was so ridiculously obvious that I felt like we’re all just morons for not seeing this clearly.

A ‘voice of understanding’ said to me, the solution to a problem is always lying dormant within the problem itself. The energies are not separable.

I saw that it had a little bit in common with the ‘all polarities are eventually the same thing’ kind of perception… but also different. It reminded me of how in hypnotherapy it was said that a subject tells you both the problem and solution generally in the

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Recognition, Novelty, Psi, and Chakras

I was only about 40% asleep last night when someone, I don’t know who, decided to do some mental walk-through on the concept of mental processing and in particular, in a remote viewing (psychic) context.

I drifted through, as if being led down a garden path of the mind, a variety of memories, from all my favorite sessions. Then I drifted through the memories of sessions done on the same target and how they were different, even with similar data, and sometimes I recognized the target in the session. And then the times I totally did not recognize that I had a target I’d had before. Then I drifted through the zillion times I had thought I recognized a target “or its nature or something in it” based on data, and was wrong. Then I went back to the previous where I had accurately recognized the target, and it was like a comparison of sorts between the two.

It took me a bit to ‘get it’. And I swear, I guess I’m an idiot, but I think most of the grokking didn’t happen until sometime the next day, as if the back of my brain was working this out while the rest of me went about life. But when I did start to absorb it finally, it seemed so obvious.

Target recognition happens at a completely different place in my body, than ‘recognition’ in ordinary life.

The latter (in regular life) is usually visual, sometimes audible. When that’s the

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Recognition, Novelty, Psi, and Chakras

Astral Geeks

Today I feel like an idiot. It only just became clear to me that even during my most focused, vivid and dedicated meditation periods, I’ve been like a fool stumbling down the high wire, oblivious and too lazily disorganized to bother learning anything from any of the previous steps.

Since my efforts are like nothing-nothing-nothing-OBSESS!-nothing in cycles, every year or two I have a ‘period’ that almost stands alone for experience. It is so separated from other periods, and my recall is so quickly iffy on this stuff anyway, that it’s like a bad alzheimers joke. (“New guides every day!”) Outside of the Four and IG, I’m lucky to remember anything at all.

I get very clearly from my recent ‘review’ that the energy of the Senior is a ‘symbol’ that repeats. When I see black, or rectangles, it’s his energy. I tripped over a whole variety of dreams where thick rectangles were involved, over meditations where archetypes had a rectangle sticking out of their head, stuff like that. Did I get it? Of course not. Because I’ve never really tried to keep track of different symbols and associations. That would make sense. We wouldn’t want that!

I also tripped over all kinds of stuff that lacked useful detail. “And a cat…” or “And this big monster-thing…” Yeah? What kind? What color? I didn’t think to write that down. Geez, in an entire universe operating on SYMBOL — sounds, colors, textures, shapes —

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Astral Geeks

Programming the Self

I had forgotten about this meditation approach: Create a ‘geometry’ which ‘is’ a given energy. This is like that geometric language you feel inside you, that some say is called the Angelic language, where the geometric shapes ‘are’ the ‘ISness’, the thing itself being communicated. Then you are plugging it in” to the programming control center of yourself.

I remembered the last part, but not the first about making it a geometry that feels right, and I think this is very important and more powerful somehow. Also I had forgotten the part about ‘conflict resolution’, I think that is important too.

Also I had forgotten that there is a specific “DNA Meditation” that one can do there. Sheesh! Anything else I’m forgetting?? Oh yeah: I had also forgotten that my outer guides (OG) used to work with me so often and often came with me to the body-worlds and did a ton of energy work with me like on my chakras.

The guides in the various science-lab centers ‘inside/under’ the plateau, as a group, that deal with my body, are the overlapping guide-identities that I now call “Tek”.

Journal fragment, July 16, 2002

I was doing a Control Center med, some OGs in there with me too. It totally rocked!

I came up with a single, succinct and direct sentence for what I wanted (“I am very disciplined and have much will”). Then, I had my imagination come up with a geometric shape that “said” exactly that,

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Programming the Self

Internal Katas

So the recent directive or understanding, is that I am integrating my “inner world” with my “outer world”. I am to let all the parts of myself “show me” internally the nature of what I am experiencing externally, which should also allow me to work directly with that energy (such as to change it).

I turns out I was just starting this once, long ago, from a different perspective. But after awhile I quit doing the internal work and forgot all about it.

Journal fragment, 11 January 2006

I’ll call this ‘Internal Katas’

Three ways I can work on an energy pattern and/or my relationship with it.

1 – Create an archetype. This is a relationship “reality” pattern, etc. on the outside, only.

2 – Get inside that matrix, e.g. merge with it, and then work on the new me from inside that.

3 – Find that pattern within myself. Everything outside, sources from inside. “Replicate locally the nonlocal pattern by revealing the existing points-patterns internally which match.”

I understood: The latter is the root of psi practices (like remote viewing).

Now it’s my job to practice. The kata: look inside for the pattern, creature, body-effect, which matches things in my outer reality.



IG doesn’t normally talk a lot and it occurs to me with some humor that she is as singularly unhelpful as most ‘spiritual entities’ at the moment. IG I don’t want this right now I said. I cannot doubt myself at this point, it’s important I keep the faith in myself and my experience. And some new entity(s) I don’t even know or understand make me doubt myself all over again. Like WHY is this here, am I making this up for entertainment? For goddsakes, I already have more entities inside me than anybody sane!!

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Commitment

Archmed: Awareness Management 1

I worked to be aware of myself as within the Four, and just as I went to ‘dissolve’ them, I felt somehow that wasn’t right. One or more of the Four had a different opinion; they thought we should be pouring energy into these forms to heal and clean them, ‘from core inception’ upward. So we were changing their fundamental nature, but allowing them to live, just in a more ‘ideal’ form that would be in accordance with us. OK, I thought at the Four, and I imagined energy going through us and into the ‘core’ of all those forms. It was very powerful, I felt it through my entire body the whole time we were doing that.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Archmed: Awareness Management 1

Archmed: Work Enthusiasm

I told IG I wanted to focus on work. On being more enthusiastic, more dedicated, more responsible, and so on. Lately I’ve been having some passive/aggressive sneaking into me and that really bothers me. Work is important to me and I want to do well at it. So while I was at it I told her, I think I would really like this to be powerful in effect, and I think I could, you know, take on more than normal in some fashion, like I’m willing to “try harder” if needed for seeing it or healing it or whatever. […]

IG used a couple fingers to paint my whole eye areas with something, the lids to brows and below them, that was odd. She did a few stripes on each of my upper arms. I had my eyes closed and then I felt her, with her whole hand covered with this sparkly paint like stuff, throw out her palm and softly hit me in the chest, pressing right against my heart chakra, and I “found myself abruptly” in another world.

–and the instant I opened my eyes, big monsters were nearly on top of me around me snarling in mid-leap and in insta-panic reaction I flashed into Responsibility (‘the ultimate warrior’) and did a sky-high leap up into the top of a tree nearby, registering as I did that I was in the middle of a forest, and landing with a big heavy gun in my hands.

No no no! I felt many ideas from many seemingly separate sources at once — Don’t shoot the archetypes!!! Which then seemed kind of hilarious. Just a triggered reaction, I guess!

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Archmed: Work Enthusiasm