Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists and I forget.
I blog, re-read, remember.
So I blog for me, mostly.
I have found that:
- → sincere and regular prayer
- → genuinely good intentions
- → present-focus, "interest"
- → extended sense of humor
- → honesty, sharing, healing
- → constant work to discover and release bias in oneself
- →
dogged (to the extreme) effort to pursue awareness and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside." We only grok by going through. Spiritual growth is like all others: you absorb, become aware, and via love (sympathetic rapport and desire to become or absorb) and will (directed intent), that energy becomes part of your singular sense of identity. The 'growth' is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self. Diversity is Legion; Singularity is the I AM. None of this is new or unique. It's simply "unconscious and slow" for most people. I figure I can't help doing it, so I would rather do it well than badly. Darkness is not of the Nothingness. It is not the opposite of light, as it only exists within the realm of light itself. Darkness is just something-ness lacking color. The universe is fundamentally of light, and darkness fails to hold dominance and fails to understand why: its nature precludes it: awareness itself makes all identities children of the light.
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Posted by Palyne on 2008.05.01 I was thinking just a bit ago, while driving my kid to school, about where I have felt that feeling before. The one in the meditation and in the dream both. The one where there is much info under the surface, you don’t and even can’t know it consciously, but you have to trust that your subconscious can handle it, and you have to hold your conscious intent in such a way as to make that happen.
It’s an odd contradiction of sorts. You can’t look at it directly consciously; none of it is clear enough, and focusing on any one thing would make it impossible, it would mess it up. Kind of like how when you’re doing something fast and complicated, physically, sometimes you have to NOT focus-in or you will screw it up; you have to let that semi-autonomous part of your brain, the one that manages the amazing physics of catching a ball when juggling 5 of them, to operate. In a way you are UN-focusing on any-single-thing consciously, while holding the intent that the lower-level of your brain is going to be able to catch any number of unknown things SUBconsciously, and at the same time you have to hold this sort of “optimistic, positive expectation and belief that it could be ok, this could work.”
I think this relates to probabilities and creating reality. So often we don’t really know WHAT it is we are trying to accomplish; if we did, we would be trying
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Posted by Palyne on 2008.02.28 In Autumn of 1995, I was walking across my living room when I suddenly became consciously aware, fully, of a series of troublesome dreams, “programmed dreams” I had taken to calling them, which I’d been having regularly for six months. The nature of them was a bit shocking, and I stopped in mid-step. Then I thought about them for quite awhile. I “knew”, intuitively, that now I had become aware of them, I would never have to worry about them again.
The next day I heard about Remote Viewing. The day after that I started a daily email conversation with someone involved in that field. And everything just seemed to roll on from that point. It was like everything I had been experiencing and involved with for years, simply fell away like it had never existed.
Around February of 1996, my life completed a ‘shift’ into what felt like a radically different cycle. I didn’t know it at the time, but that marked about three months of pregnancy for me. It felt as if a giant thick black energetic blanket had settled itself down right over my crown chakra. I felt cut off from myself, from God, from the ‘sense of truth’ I used to feel so strongly, from everything that mattered to me. I felt I’d somehow been reverted to the “trauma queen” personality I’d had a dozen years before, but had worked my butt off to “evolve from” to that point.
By 1997, the Remote Viewing topic had
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Posted by Palyne on 2007.04.14 This was my first archmed for a session after ‘the eyes of trinity’ where an arch suggested, and IG confirmed, that I could actually focus on the arch work not just to facilitate rapport for remote viewing data collection, but for actual personal evolution as well.
I went to my normal area in my inner space for arch-session work. It’s a place near the plateau with my outer guides, but totally set off on its own, and Inner Guide joins me there.
I started to ask for the archetype of the target, and then decided to change the request, to the composite of the archetype of the target plus whatever energies would contribute to my own personal development. And then I stopped and thought, well how selfish is that. If the point here is working jointly with the target, why am I not also asking for what is most beneficial to the target?
I know, most people think only people, perhaps animals, can evolve. But I think all matter is energy, and all energy is consciousness, so technically a gum wrapper has more than we give it credit for; perhaps its collection of consciousness is very small comparatively, less complex; it is not aware, let alone self-aware; but so what?
It reminds me of A Course in Miracles and how people get different side effects from reading it. I passed through several phases. Including the one where I considered everything around me “fake”. It was all illusion after all. And
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Posted by Palyne on 2007.04.01 I had a long time with Inner Guide (IG). In short I expressed how I wanted to be more aware, more open to psi, how I wanted to genuinely pursue it consistently, and so on.
He agreed to help me… but at one point he leaned close to me and said, “There will come a day when you will be asking me to stop this. When you will be asking me to curtail it, to protect you from it. If you commit to this now, I will not prevent it from happening or take it back again later. I will instead help you to deal with the effects of it.”
I felt kind of wide-eyed at that. But I said that was fine. I asked him to proactively help me deal with anything that is a threat to my consistent viewing.
The archetype had three eyes, three arms on each side (6 total), and three legs. Like some kind of vedic deity, male and standing.
I imagined the rain of love pouring down upon us, while I imagined the energy of love at max intensity coming out of my center and going into his and healing him of anything and everything. Eventually his head was normal and then finally his arms and legs except a ghostly reminder and then finally that was gone too.
During the process I kept having diff versions of the same visual dynamic: something is thrown to the ground, something small, and it kind
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Reality = Physiology = Psychology = Spirituality = Cosmology = Geometry = Number = Sound = Form There is no difference.  Posts  Comments Identity is an arbitrary collection of consciousness assigned a title. My work is not just study; it's prayer, it's mental techniques, it's life habits. It's not just about inner worlds; discipline and physical environment matter. It's not just spiritual; my body and world is part of it. It's not just esoteric; everything corresponds integrally — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. It's not just an '-ology'; my own identity, body, reality, psyche is key to it all. The only tenets of truth I hold are based on personal experience.This effort has spanned my life, but not until ~1994 did it become intentional, not 'til late '00s did it become fairly 'serious'. I've gone through many models and philosophies over time, but now I've none except what experience teach me. I am ever the student, but I've reached a point of "fluency" and "internal guidance" where I don't care about labels or other peoples' paradigms.
CATEGORIES on this blog are extensive and nested. Most everything that matters or repeats much has a category.
The TAGS are just minor notes of reference trivia. They are usually a rare experience, or an observation about something I read.
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