Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists and I forget.
I blog, re-read, remember.
So I blog for me, mostly.
I have found that:
- → sincere and regular prayer
- → genuinely good intentions
- → present-focus, "interest"
- → extended sense of humor
- → honesty, sharing, healing
- → constant work to discover and release bias in oneself
- →
dogged (to the extreme) effort to pursue awareness and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside." We only grok by going through.
Spiritual growth is like all others: you absorb, become aware, and via love (sympathetic rapport and desire to become or absorb) and will (directed intent), that energy becomes part of your singular sense of identity. The 'growth' is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self. Diversity is Legion; Singularity is the I AM. None of this is new or unique. It's simply "unconscious and slow" for most people. I figure I can't help doing it, so I would rather do it well than badly.
Darkness is not of the Nothingness. It is not the opposite of light, as it only exists within the realm of light itself. Darkness is just something-ness lacking color. The universe is fundamentally of light, and darkness fails to hold dominance and fails to understand why: its nature precludes it: awareness itself makes all identities children of the light.
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Posted by Palyne on 2009.09.29 Apparently this is what happens if you just ignore archetype meditations altogether for awhile. The mountain comes to Mohammed.
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I was relaxed but not at all asleep when Tek showed up. Tek is a ‘body-archetype’ I guess. Times when I drop into this “white lab area” to work on stuff related to my body, he’s the technician. But it’s usually a matter of me going there and there he is. Never have I seen him anywhere else — let alone in my awareness when I am not meditating at all. But there he was.
And suddenly we were together somewhere ‘else’. In the ‘else’-place, there was what I thought was a big wall, but then realized it was a big object of some kind, I was just seeing a part of it. The wall was lightly covered in places, and super densely in others especially nearer the top, with these darkest-brown “nodules”. They felt like spherical barnacles.
I had the feeling that whatever they had begun as, attached in a tiny piece but added to it and grown, it had been “alive”. Not alive like a full life form, but like… like molecules and cells felt a bit more alive than they normally do to me, and they were as much alive as anything else at that level.
He pointed and I followed his focus. A wave of nausea passed through me, which is pretty common for body-cleaning areas he focuses me on. I could tell that the surface
Read the full article at Body Meds: Liver http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/body-meds-liver/
Posted by Palyne on 2009.08.25 In hypnosis, an ‘abreaction’ is what I was taught to call the spontaneous muscle spasm jerks that the subject (person being hypnotized) sometimes would display — these can be anywhere in the body, but usually occur solar plexus or lower. The idea is that when this happened, it was a subconscious “rejection” of the information that was being processed at that moment. You’ve heard the slang phrase “a knee-jerk reaction” — yes. Basically that sums it up.
In psychology official, abreaction is “the release of emotional tension achieved through recalling a repressed traumatic experience.” Its definition indirectly or directly implies that this recall is via ‘words, behavior, or imagination’. Nowhere does it suggest that “spontaneous muscle spasms” qualify for the term, though I suppose they do. For whatever reason, the MDs and PhDs that ran one of the places where I studied hypnosis used that term for that effect.
Abreactions were not uncommon, in fact they were pretty much the norm. Where, how often, how extreme, etc. they might be depended not just on the person but on the subject matter, and I assumed, the degree of belief system issues they were having with absorbing suggestions directly. If one line of suggestion was meeting regular abreactions, the result wasn’t likely to be good; best to take a different tact.
At one point, I started studying people around me whom I was not hypnotizing, and came to the interesting conclusion that perhaps many people abreact quite a lot in
Posted by Palyne on 2009.07.19 Had some time this evening. First time that I have not been profoundly sleep deprived, and had at least an hour to myself, in longer than I can even remember.
I decided to do some meditating.
First I roll out my world as usual and am reminded–I’d forgotten–that for some reason, a staunch tree grew on my plateau near where I appear. This plateau is super high, nothing but rock and wind, but there it is. It is amazing to me that despite I’d consciously forgotten about this, it’s like the thought form has its own coherence. I couldn’t remember what/why it was there, if I ever knew. I finally decided a tree wouldn’t be a bad thing after all; I mean symbolically it seems ok; so I poured some energy visualization into the overall setting to make it nice for me and IG to meet there. I thought since I meet her under a tree — albeit some distance away, and through a cave, and out into a subworld — that maybe this was a sign I should just do the work here instead.
So I meet IG and after some rapport tell her just whatever she likes, everything I most need to work on, let’s do it.
The first archetype med had me opening my eyes and I was floating in space. This is rather different. Ahead of me is what looks like some kind of gas-cloud constellation, as well as tons of fragments of stuff that looks
Read the full article at Misc. Meditations http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/misc-meditations/
Posted by Palyne on 2009.05.04 I can’t believe I didn’t think of this before. Me, of all people!
So the other night I was meditating–I can’t even remember on what. I’m sure it was very worthwhile but I forgot to blog it so it’s gone–and during the meditation I had a sudden ‘twinge’ in my left foot.
Of course when you meditate you get all kinds of distracting body sensations, little pains, etc. But because I was at that moment pouring energy into an archetype (to no particular effect), without thinking much about it, I shifted and for a few moments, was pouring the same kind of energy-intent into my foot where it had the painful little twinge. And I got a *major* rush, body-wide.
I was astonished. It made me realize that when we are meditating on something, body stuff isn’t just a ‘distraction’ — it’s energy acting-out, it’s communication or at least warning sparks — and THAT is exactly where to focus. I mean, that’s what pain is about: saying, “pay attention to me!” And all this time I’ve been taking this no-mind meditation approach toward it — rather than the active-meditation format I actually use — I’d been working to ignore that kind of thing.
Once I realized that my body could talk to me and that energy with my body was as much a part of the meditation as the other things, that seemed to come and go for awhile, as if my body was as delighted as I was that
Read the full article at Body Talk http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/body-talk/
Posted by Palyne on 2008.09.07 I fell asleep before I could get anything accomplished in meditation last night. So today when I got up I decided to start my weekend cooking and once it was set, sit down and meditate.(I try to cook some for the coming week, things we can munch here and there without whole-meal cooking. Today it was Mexichiliburger Stew and Blueberry Flax Muffins.)
I let IG pick the first two archetypes–and I asked for archetypes. No more guides. I don’t know why, but I really have a reaction to even the idea of guides let alone meeting them up close. I apologized to Taan last night for being such a jerk. For whatever reason I have some threat-issues with the Consortium, I have since the first time the Four introduced me to them. I couldn’t even LOOK at them then, and I clung to the 3rd of 4 like a small child, it was weird. I’m intending to make “my relationship with them” an archetype and work on it. I’ll get there, but I have three of them now and that ought to be enough for awhile I figure.
There was nothing exceptional about the meds. Just ordinary archetype work, not even very memorable.
Then I asked to work with a few planets because I knew they wouldn’t be so intangible as the archs she happened to be giving me. She brought me Jupiter, Pluto, and then Ganymede at my request. The first two were just a lovely minor rush on
Read the full article at Cleaning Center Meds http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/cleaning-center-meds/
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Identity is an arbitrary collection of consciousness assigned a title. My work is not just study; it's prayer, it's mental techniques, it's life habits. It's not just about inner worlds; discipline and physical environment matter. It's not just spiritual; my body and world is part of it. It's not just esoteric; everything corresponds integrally — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. It's not just an '-ology'; my own identity, body, reality, psyche is key to it all. The only tenets of truth I hold are based on personal experience.This effort has spanned my life, but not until ~1994 did it become intentional, not 'til late '00s did it become fairly 'serious'. I've gone through many models and philosophies over time, but now I've none except what experience teach me. I am ever the student, but I've reached a point of "fluency" and "internal guidance" where I don't care about labels or other peoples' paradigms.
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