It is truly unbelievable the way my life works sometimes.
I made a really big, huge, sincere dedication to myself, to IG, to meditation. I would take this time, I would weave it around my daily schedule, I would make it happen.
The very next day I got a promotion at work. Into an area that was a complete disaster, everything way behind, for a multi million pubdate crisis at the beginning of the year. I worked 20 hours a day, 7 days a week, from then until this week.
I barely ate and when I did it was whatever could be instant. I didn’t sleep remotely enough. I didn’t do anything at all in my personal life. I totally shined on my kid, who now at age 14 seems to be showing some side-effects in attitude from that period, although it’s a little hard to untangle what happens solely as part of being 14 anyway. ;-)
More to the point: I didn’t meditate. I not only didn’t meditate according to my commitment, I didn’t meditate AT ALL. Not even a little. Not even once.
It feels like I said, “Universe, I’m doing X!” and the universe said, “Oh YEAH? You think so? We have other plans. Mwahahahaha!”
I am still working far too much but I am taming it down, and I hope this coming week I have not more than 10-12 hours a day and an actual weekend for the first time, next week.
Whether this promotion will result in more money or other useful things, who knows. It did result in me at least finally being able to help my boss and department, which I’d been frustrated by not having the authority to do for some time. It gave me only semi-authority; I’m not a hiring manager but three people now technically report to me, none of whom want to and one of whom is part of the reason it was such a mess in the first place, so it’s not an ideal situation. But I feel better about being able to DO something, than I did prior, so it’s all good. And I think the effort paid off, in that nothing melted down which it would have otherwise.
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I had a brief med with Jiri (Hot Amanakhaton) and Bo (Bolehren) this morning I’ll write about separately later.
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Yeah! Get thee more sleep this week! You’ll probably be more effective and efficient if you do anyway, which is as good an excuse as any..
Let me get this straight (and I’m going to apologize up front for my attitude her–this is something I feel very strongly about): you get a “promotion” and it means you not only have more work, but some ungodly amount where you are skipping over your body’s basic necessities like sleep and food, where you’re longing for a “normal” work day of 10-12 hours and a weekend and they aren’t even paying you more?
This is bullshit. What kind of company expects this of their employees? This sounds like you’re being taken advantage of. Some companies look for conscientious people with high skill and a high work ethic, then exploit them so they get more work for free. A complete disregard for an employee’s health and well-being.
I feel *very* strongly about this. No one should have to sacrifice their life in favor of a paycheck. We’re here to live. So pardon me calling bullshit on this. I don’t want to wake up one morning and find out that you’ve worked yourself to death.
Yeah, I understand your point.
It was a bad situation. I think it’s better now.
I should have worked a lot more today and I didn’t. I’m having a hard time caring. A burnout side effect.
Got some reading done tonight though.
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