I’ve had this energy “open” for literally months and months. I finally got around to it.
I began last night but fell asleep before I could do anything. I continued this morning.
I reminded myself that no matter this was an official archmed, that it’s up to IG how it goes and I’ll let her do as she likes. I reminded myself that I needed to work “with” her instead of expecting some pre-made spoon-fed experience, although I’m not against those if they happen now and then only against limiting myself to ‘requiring’ that.
I haven’t meditated in so long, and so little in the last 7 months, I’m pretty much a metaphysical dork at this point, so the perceptuals especially to begin were barely-there. After something nebulous I worked on ‘allowing’, I was looking at some offbeat shape, vertical, that had a sort of pattern in it, two-toned color, a sort of deep reddish color (which you can’t see in this pic but is about the darker color on the bottom sides of the coins in the lower card), and a dark-cream color.
(I didn’t see any yellow, green, or lavender, anywhere. Not that I expect to. Just that if colors do come across, it seems like they’d match, sometimes they have.)
It was a bit nebulous and abstract. “Well I can work with this, though,” I told IG, but she wasn’t good with that, and I had the feeling, it actually did need to be something that my mind could put a “label and handle on” for the sake of my interaction.
So then this thing ‘grew’ in the now-forest-clearing environment, an elevated round pavilion but very small, and a chair right in the middle of it. The chair was trying to find a pattern and every time I felt we had one and that would be it, the top would insist on becoming larger and rounder until eventually what we had was something a little like a ‘casual throne’ but the ‘back’ of the chair was like a 12 foot diameter circle.
The outside of the round pavilion took the shape from the first visual including the “two-toned color at the edge.”
There was no person or creature around so I decided the environ was the arch, and I walked up a few steps and over to the chair and sat in it. I leaned my head against the back and imagined that in doing so, I connected with everything, and that felt right.
But nothing happened. I mean nothing interesting. I was just sitting there. I did feel it was MY chair, but still. You’d think it’d be more exciting. I remembered a previous med where the arch told me I’d had his energy open for a long time (so there wasn’t much left to do, for this point in my development’s ability to integrate).
So I shrugged, and decided to just imagine pulling the chair and pavilion into me as an energy merge, and was very surprised to get a whole lot of rushing from that. So I replayed the intent/experience until it was no longer giving me all that energy-response.
That was it. Not very interesting I know but it is what it is I guess!
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