I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

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Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.
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People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne


In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe


Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne



Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'


The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"


Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.




Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


ABOUT ME


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne


When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

About

PSICHE is a blog of Palyne (that’s me). That’s pronounced PAY’-len. It is Patricia + Leon, my parents’ names. The blog name has an “I” in the middle because the blog is all about the “I,” both in psi and in the “individuation of self.”

I currently live in the Ozarks territory of the United States. I was born September 14, 1965 in Ojai, California (USA). I don’t know much astrology, except this summary: I have four planets including Sun in Virgo; three planets including Venus and Mars in Scorpio; Taurus moon; and Aries rising. I once had a reading on my natal chart and came to the conclusion that it was impressively accurate for whatever I began with (a real mess!), but not accurate at all anymore. I suspect I have worked through and resolved most of the difficult areas it reflected.

I intended music as my career through my whole life but changed that suddenly in my early 20’s, in part due to the sudden onset of a genetically-related, no-known-cure medical condition I didn’t learn about until 25 years later. It increased in symptoms and has affected my life a great deal more over time.

I worked in business management in small companies for a decade (~1982-1995), and then in internet tech (mostly as an independent) (~1995-2004), and I currently work (remotely from home) for a big global textbook publishing corporation, as a program manager for digital products (~2004-present).

I am a writer, by nature not by trade, but I would like to take more time for that and write (fiction mostly) as well.  I love animals (I have too many cats), a little bit of gardening (mostly peppers and basil), science fiction and fantasy (and sometimes, bad romance) books, computers and the internet.  My home page is at palyne.com.

In search engines my name is generally associated with Remote Viewing although my views changed radically over the years, to the point where I would probably contradict much of what’s online, and I’m barely involved in that most the time now. I have a couple projects I still pay for and sometimes work on, simply to support the good faith of hands-on and critical-thinking, in a field that has far too little of both.

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I practice what is sometimes called “active imagination meditations” but I prefer to call “imaginal workings.” This is a specific skill development and should not be confused with simple imagination or visualization.

(Although our participation in reality via dreams, daydreams, and life itself, in fact does have serious energetic effects for us, even via ‘simple imagination.’ Just to be clear.)

I have worked to be able to hold this “state of focus” in every brainwave state, from delta mixed with a little beta (the most powerful if you can stay awake) all the way to beta mixed with a little alpha (walking around eyes open). Generally the closer you are to genuine deep dreaming the more powerful your results, but this also means the more powerful the experience, which can be more than distracting, so there is a range in the middle that is probably most ideal.

Memory is a big difficulty with new energies at least for me, so blogging promptly became an issue of integrity, as I would lose everything if I didn’t. Often I would be rereading something for the 10th time and it was still new to me. I didn’t remember having the experience, writing about it, or reading about it — the nine times prior. That is pretty severe for memory issues! So blogging ended up being my lifeline, although it became a magical diary and so far too rambling for other people I suspect. The blog is for me not others, but I think it helps me to write with the ‘awareness’ that someday someone may be reading.

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My effort was based originally on someone else’s read of Edwin Steinbrecher’s book The Inner Guide Meditation. My efforts were never much focused only on “existing archetypes” the way that subject often is (I didn’t begin tarot or astrology archetypes until well after 20 years in) (to my own detriment, I am sure).

Eventually my Inner Guides changed-out and sort of evolved along with me, and my process got less scripted, and it just kind of flowed into and through my life.

My IG#4 turned out to be from the Angelic realm, though I was halfway through her term before I had the capacity to perceive that. By the time she was moving on, having given me more conversation and even reading (!) than I’d ever had in 20 years combined, she had changed me utterly.

My IG#5 made no secret of his nature, telling me all things are through me. He is what some call the Holy Guardian Angel or HGA. Or, he is what percentage of that I am capable of perceiving for now.

Contrary to the idea that finally meeting HGA would magically solve everything, for me what it mostly did is create truly massive cognitive dissonance, and my reading and conversation actually dropped a great deal when I realized his nature as I suddenly blocked off a lot. So currently I am still on the same “chop wood, carry water” path that I began on a long time ago, working through it. It also brought up some literally life-and-death health issues that I am now working through as part of it. I see all this as related.

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I have some things that have profoundly affected my paradigms and experiences, and continue to do so. Two, primarily.

  1. There is some kind of “structure of soul” which I do not understand intellectually but I experience repeatedly. There are three levels (spheres) of energy (unmanifest) which manifest into our reality. They manifest first into one identity (1st of 4), who also becomes a second (2nd of 4), and the two of them creates a third and they are a trinity (3rd of 4). Third then… extends itself into a 4th, which contains all of them, but is also ‘of’ the 4th world (our world). I am part of this fourth identity, an Aeon of it, which means I am all of it but my focus is only on one part. When the ‘divine light’ is full in each of these spheres, they are represented by creatures: a man, a metallic-gold eagle, a lion, and a bull (I am an Aeon of the bull). I see the symbolism in old religious stuff from around the world but it’s oddly personal for me. Someone inside once referred to us as “a four-fold soul.” I once found another system (which I had no awareness of and have no part of, the Gnostics) that refers to these as the Four Aeons of Light. My primary awareness is that 3rd of 4 and I, when combined, are a single soul. He is the ‘encompassing soul’ and more than half our energy. He once told me very clearly, I am Neshama.
  2. The structure of soul that is the so-called “me”part is composed of 12 Aeons, which are all all-of-me but have differing focii. Technically “I” am simply an emergent-property identity; I exist to share and make decisions based upon that sharing; but whatever thing one might call the reality-of-spirituality is found within them. I see and experience “through” their eyes, through them. The more I am integrated with them, the more I am integrated with The Four, and with my HGA, and with some other identities that are larger, as well.

I don’t actually know much about meditative systems (such as occult) officially, and I don’t really read much about others (such as Jungian analysis) as I find all these things either bore me into a stupor promptly, or tempt me to “think about” living rather than actually living. I maintain that I will only believe what is shown me from the inside, and that I will have no doctrines, only the ‘experience’ of time. This tends to mean I am confused about my experience until well down the road, when time, or onlookers, have educated me as to what something likely meant or how it related to other things. I accept this as my particular approach.

My email contact form is here or you can make a comment on the blog itself. My first name at gmail is my primary address for a more direct approach.

Palyne

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