I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne

In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe

Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne

Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'

The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"

Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.

Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne

When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV


I recognize that much of the emotions I recently felt about IG, the gut-feelings of drama, trauma, anger, avoidance, rejection, resistance, that ugly ball of energy that I finally seem to have mostly let go of just the last couple days — it’s like it’s back. But it’s smaller, and it’s specific to this guy, not IG. I wonder if I’ve simply learned to be more aware of those feelings so now they are recognizable to me.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Buried

Notes to Self, 31 Jan 2013

7 days of journal notes to self. subtitled books and dreams and rooms, oh my

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Crown Chakra Review

My crown chakra once had an experiential-conversation with me and showed me some detail about its nature. Since that time I have had various insights. I’ve decided to write down what I feel is my greater understanding of it, now that it’s had more time to assimilate in me and be improved by further experience.

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Reality Layers

Back in 1993 I had an experience (in Bewilderness) of an entity who was searching ‘me’ for ‘fear’ and would have been able to grab and hold it somehow. Perhaps like magicians attempt to get energy for money or whatever. I was able (due to an early Archangel Michael focus) to let go of all fear, despite the situation was scary to me (I was awake when it happened). Near the end, I had a realization or understanding, and I opened my eyes and could ‘see’ him. I understood that his world was a super-thin ‘layer.’ MY world actually spanned “tons of” layers. He was a tiny entity ‘compared to me.’ I was way more powerful than him.

At the time I simply intuitively understood there were zillions of ‘realities’ and they were in super thin “layers of frequency.” But that some realities also ‘spanned’ multiple layers.


Back in late ’94 or ’95 I met an Abramelin entity, the one related to invisibility. He was very kind to me. I told him the whole story of the “Flatlanders” and how our people assume that we can’t see entities like him because he’s probably more ‘extra-dimensional’ than we are or something. He explained that was inaccurate. He showed me how to ‘find’ and ‘see’ him. It required actually setting my ‘intent’ to do so, and then letting my mind work it out without my intervention, and it was a super, super tiny “microdot.” But when you got to it, you

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Notes to Self, 23 Jan 2013

Do you suppose that archmeds on two more Knight cards relates to this? The Senior’s energy is very dominant and autonomous. Might it be that I am just getting a little bit more sense of self (I’m growing me some cojonas, pedro)? So I feel more strongly about choosing my own path?

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Midnight Mass w/IG 22 Jan 2013

After some confusion, sofa appears in landscape. there is really nothing, aside from groundcover, except in the distance an active flowing volcano. But after some time, still nothing. We move closer to it. Still nothing. I have no idea what to do. It feels like I went to an environment but nobody was home. I finally decided I’ll just do the things waiting for me. I feel like I ‘should.’

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He only made it about 50-60% of the way in. To be fair, he tried to let it happen. He tried to allow it. He really wanted this. But it was his nature, he couldn’t help it — to him, it felt like fighting for his life, I think. The minute he had about half of “him” in me, he started fighting for control, for dominance, trying to take over, trying to get the upper hand over me.

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Tarot Knight of Cups

Thoth Tarot Knight of Cups

He was the Knight of Cups. I was pretty sure of it. But not 100% sure because I still had that “this is a whole world not just an archmed” feeling. Then I started wondering how you tell the difference: might it be that I am just better able to handle a whole world of information now than then? Like my video game is now in 3D HD with massively more detail and a wider screen, but it’s not that the game has changed, only my streaming bandwidth and monitor?

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Stuff and Energetic Absorption

The object in a drawer in the back room, being within my sphere of energy / responsibility for which I pay / support energetically, is literally taking up some of MY energy merely by existing THERE — you could think of it as “soaking up” my energy and “living inside” my support, much like many people living on someone’s estate, or many cells that have to be fed and oxygenated inside the body.

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Identity and Eternal Life

“OK but still,” I argue, “I mean, if it’s going to happen anyway — ten years later when I finally get to it, or tonight if you just make it happen — then why not?”

I believe this following is the answer to that question.

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Tarot Knight of Disks

Thoth Tarot Knight of Disks

I went over to the next-nearest, a group of three poles, equally next to each other, about 10 feet high. They were the same as the other — a pole about two inches diameter, made of something that felt like a cross between metal and wood (unfamiliar material or composite). Each of them at the top had the same thing: a dark red suede-like fabric that covered the top foot or so of the pole, like a fabric cylinder just a bit larger than the pole, that slipped on, and at the bottom was a ‘fringe.’ Color is the symbol of 1st of Four (Senior), I note to myself.

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Notes to Self, 17 Jan 2013

Which made me realize that this is what ‘real life’ is, fundamentally. The energy IS the experience. Just like the environment is the energy in an archmed. The bad guys aren’t just a side-effect of some kind of energy. They are literally ‘composed of it’ the same way that a castle in an archmed is composed of it. The energy is us, a larger-us.

It isn’t that the larger-selves “don’t help us when we’re miserable” (e.g. in war zones). It’s that our environment is being created OUT OF the larger self BY US. They give us what we ask for. Or, perhaps, a ‘default’ based on the environment of the game, when we don’t.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Notes to Self, 17 Jan 2013