I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne

In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe

Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne

Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'

The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"

Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.

Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne

When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

Punching Through

I asked my Aeons if anybody had any opinions on what this meant.

Someone volunteered that just because I was capable of meeting a few of my Largers didn’t mean I was fully ready for that, with a “sorceror’s-apprentice” concept overlay.

Another had the concept opinion that the Largers, once their attention includes me, will pull me in–my own ‘inspiration’ and decisions will be matched to theirs, as we overlap and they have more power than I do and that is their will–but that just because this is good for them (getting me closer), doesn’t necessarily mean it’s ideal for me at this time.

Here’s where the ‘punching through’ element of both sudden visuals/ conceptuals comes through: it felt like a reference to writings about kundalini and how if you’ve blocks in the energy body, the kundalini energy may burn through them but it ain’t pretty, and may instead be blocked or go around, all with some interesting results.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Punching Through

This is your brain on over-work

I would really like to get back to meditating but it seems like even having enough time to EAT would be the first improvement. That reminds me of that saying, “If you can’t make 15 minutes to meditate every morning, you had better make it 30.”

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at This is your brain on over-work

Body and Environmental Musings

I thought of the Avatar, fully fleshed but so much instinct, not so much psyche. I thought of my solar body, the creature of light, not flesh, but seeming to be ’embodied-spirit’. Then I thought of myself in the middle, Goldilocks of the Just-Right in-between, with some of both.

Then I wondered what else there might be to us. Are there are other gradients-of-us? Are there other identities living just as simultaneously with us as the body-aspect and the lightbeing-aspect? Sharing our joined experience, and yet, having their own experience version? How do our choices affect their experience? Is it entirely our choice or is this an overlapping of energy that each gradient-focus feels is its own free will?

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Body and Environmental Musings

Wisdom and Wealth

I don’t want to ‘hoard’ things I am not using. I feel like there is some wrongness in this. Like it is injust to the things in question. As if every-thing has a destiny of sorts.

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Wisdom and Wealth

From the Deep

I already knew what was coming as somehow I’d heard the prophecy of it. From out of the deep, slowly rising, as if unbothered by the water and not wet either, came a man

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at From the Deep


I saw my role in all that. With interest and humor I saw that this is a lot of the 3rd’s energy actually, that I play out in the workplace, and that ‘troubleshooting’ and developing new stuff that is physical/process related are both highly related to him. I remembered all the times he has actually done that with me internally, like on this big partly destroyed bridge that he brought a whole regiment of soldier-workers in to repair, and things like that. In our roles of the Four, I think, I am service; I don’t know what word to assign him, but he is the champion, the physical strength, the knight, and the one in hands-on charge.

So I saw my own part of the larger work situation as the archetypal drama that it is. Some piece of the world is spiraling into chaos and darkness, a very bad situation, and then the long-suffering but apparently not sufficiently attentive to that particular area until now king realizes the crisis, and as the whole kingdom suffers and prays, the king designates this man to go through this grueling journey of sorts, and the man he doesn’t know what the heck he is doing but is loyal to his people and his king and puts enormous effort into it, and despite it being almost astronomically improbable, he actually succceeds.

I realized I have played this pattern repeatedly throughout my work life.

Then I saw with some startled, I have no idea what to think of this parallel sort of feeling, that this wasn’t merely that archetypal drama. It was ALSO almost the business version of a.. spiritual??… experience I had already, in a very different perspective: as the Captain of the Guard.

I just don’t know what to say about this. So… the energy of the 3rd is strongly with that dynamic, that strong ‘go forth and rescue’ dynamic, it is like HIM embodied as a character with many roles, like how some actors have so many movies but all their characters are sort of the same person. He IS the white knight, and as if that isn’t ironic enough, I recognized him for awhile when we first met by flashes of an actor that looked slightly like him when very young, with the white hair and overlarge slightly tilted blue eyes, the actor is the closest we come in our world, it was Rutger Hauer as he was in the movie ‘Ladyhawke’, where he played… I am not making this up… the Captain of the Guard.

So that… drama, it’s something I once perceived… inside me, like some spiritual holographic microcosm of this same energy pattern playing out. And now I realize that I am playing it out in my own way and reality. That same drama. Like every life and often every period of time/scene in that life is actually an intentional drama, a movie. For me, every job. Even many cycles within every job.
Holy cats! I’m channel 9!

This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Rambling

Larger 4th

I met the 4th ‘Larger’ as I call them (for lack of a clue on what they really are) recently.

I was in denial. This was clear even during the experience, and from my evasion of blogging about it. That also affected how much it impacted me during the experience, although he did some, and he told me at least three times “you need to breathe more,” and I had the predictable following three days of unbelievable sex drive.

I don’t remember much else now. Because I “couldn’t get around to” writing it down. Of course my working hours are much of that. Feeling a bit despairing about that, and the under-capacity situation at work.

Like the others I have no name for him (though I named them, later — Dominon, Pazyryk and Rahleon), no clue what he does, only that is part of the group that I am part of them, and they are really powerful.

Had a nightmare today that I lost my kid. Like sent her cross country to somewhere, turned out to be the wrong place, couldn’t find her, was very frustrating. She is ill. I am fighting to stay well.