I have found that:
  • → sincere prayer
  • → genuine intentions
  • → present-focus
  • → extended humor
  • → careful integrity
  • → constant work to discover and release all forms of bias in oneself
  • → dogged effort to pursue awareness, divine guidance and understanding
Leads a person to "interactive insight from the inside."

~~~
Consciously I want to evolve.
My ego resists strenuously.
I surreally "forget" so much!
So I blog for myself, mostly:
to re-read and remember.
~~~

People ask me where to begin with the complexity of the stuff on my blog. But my imaginal and related work spans 25 years as of 2016. So the real answer is "I don't know." I can't put all that in a sound bite. And one would have to understand, not just intellectually but experientially, a lot of it from start to middle to begin to understand where I am now. It is 'active imagination' work, resting on an extremely 'open' definition of archetype and energy, mapped at times to various occult patterns because they seem useful and otherwise just loosely personal; but that's not all. Short of how the blog speaks for itself that's about all I can say about it. It's a path I've built myself, for one. ~ Palyne


In the human spirit, as in the universe, nothing is higher or lower; everything has equal rights to a common center which manifests its hidden existence precisely through this harmonic relationship between every part and itself.
-- Goethe


Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth.
-- St. Thomas Aquinas

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In the beginning all was indivisible. And in becoming manifest, it became, seemingly, divisible. But the divisions must evolve to recognize themselves, and each other, and to then accept themselves, to truly know themselves by knowing each other. To begin, they are blended, confused; it is chaos, it is legion. They are all on the journey to indivisibility, to singularity, to the I AM. The point, of course, is not the destination, but the journey.

-- insight during the Princess of Disks meditation

Spiritual growth is like all other types: you absorb seemingly 'other' energy, and it becomes part of your own sense of identity. The growth is in awareness, and with that comes power which is always over Self.
Diversity is Legion;
Singularity is the I AM.
None of this is new although my approach to it is my own. -- Palyne



Inner Guide is Angelic. She is free of anything akin to doctrine. I call her an Angel because that is the only word I have for it, and because I know, all the way through me, that this is our word for her fundamentally divine nature. Aside from that, I don’t even know what she IS exactly, or what it means, or where it would fit into any model. She is life sized, soul wide, colors and gems and flowers and songs, everything beautiful that ever was, condensed into an identity I am completely in love with–except she feels like part of me too, so it’s like also being in love with yourself, and also with God, and also with the whole universe, both every tiny thing in your mundania, and ‘awareness’ as something so utterly, mind-bogglingly amazing — how could this exist? How could this not exist? How could I ever understand such a thing? — I am left only with joy, with awe.
-- on Inner Guide #4, aka 'Sedaena'. The first IG I had genuine conversation (and reading) with; the first real sign of my HGA.

He is so much inside and outside me, larger than me and yet the light of the tiniest particles of me, I don’t even have a word for whatever it is that he IS. I call him angelic and inner guide and the name he gave me because I have no idea what else to call this. It’s a Being and a Thing and an Event and a Place and a Relationship and… it’s like there is no label that is remotely big enough to encompass whatever it IS.
-- on Inner Guide #5, aka 'Mark.'


The boundary between the imaginational and imaginal is rather fuzzy and it is a developed skill and art to learn to stay there; to maintain your own autonomy while allowing the-others’ autonomy; to be shocked, astounded, grossed out, effused, and other surprise emotions from the interaction; all this without getting lost in the experience like a dream, yet also without pulling back to controlling the experience like a daydream. The former is being swept away by the river, and the latter is standing on the shore thinking about it; learning to walk the fine line of control and allowance to stay in that ‘imaginal realm’ actually takes practice. Crazy people think it’s all autonomous and happening ‘to’ them; people unable to allow this for themselves, may think it’s all imagination; and they’d both be right, because they are both lost; the goal is a whole world that bridges and encompasses both of those.

-- on "Interworlds Meditation"


Q: Where are you now?

Me: Well, back in my own reality.

Q: Wrong. You are in a reality version that distraction and denial have made for you.

Me: How do I get out?

Q: Wrong question. There is no space, there is no time. Where are you again?

Me: Oh. I’m wherever I "pay attention" to being.

Q: Right. You PAY attention. It is the currency of your soul. You rent your reality. Never forget that. The choice to move is yours.




Dealing with the unconscious has become a question of life for us.
The play of the imagination is incalculable.
~ Carl Jung

The imaginary can be innocuous, the imaginal never can.
~ Henry Corbin

A calling may be postponed, avoided, intermittently missed. It may also possess you completely. Whatever; eventually it will out. It makes its claim. The daimon does not go away.
~ James Hillman

There comes a time when the mind takes a higher plane of knowledge but can never prove how it got there.
-- Albert Einstein


ABOUT ME


This blog documents much of my work in the "inter-worlds" of a greater-self. It's not just esoteric: every thing corresponds — the mundane, the arcane, the divine. If it had to be summed up you might say it is "a universe of personalization." A strange place where monotheism and ultimate-pantheism are one and the same.

I am a natural mystic, if spontaneous experiences determine such a thing. I am not religious in any way; only guidance from the inside drives me. No identities or models unless they are introduced to me from the inside. (Sometimes I use them simply for interest, or because their models are convenient doorways -- but I accept none of their doctrines.) I briefly studied theology at one point, independently (I consider constant prayer a valid part of edu too), and where it led me was "anywhere-else." It's fine for others of course. I consider the heart of free will to be that everyone has their own road. Or as Heinlein once wrote, the right to go to hell in their own handbasket.

This tends to make me obsessed with the divine yet not religious at all, in any form, which is often confusing to onlookers. I am ever in love with and in closer pursuit of integration with The Christ (which I consider a solar-planetary deity, exceeding and preceding all possible religion, though cyclically present within our species) but I'm not remotely a modern Christian, and this also tends to be very confusing to onlookers. I'm a student of archetypes and pattern systems, yet not a jungian intellectual - armchair philosophy bores me - nor a power occultist - which has its own issues (and uniforms) to say the least.

After nearly two decades of certain experiences I felt alone with and thought were unique to me, it turns out I find some harmony in the gnostic writings. I didn't get it from there, and am not fond of that doctrine and the paradigms it came in with, so I ignore it. Which means despite talking about just a few things specific to it (by unknowing accident until a few years ago), I'm not part of that model either.

The road I walk is my own. It doesn't really have an easy label or anybody else on it, that I can see. This is between me and God, so it doesn't really need to work for anybody else. I used to wish I wasn't the only person with such experiences or practices, and started a blog in part in the hope I might find others with something similar. Maybe a need for community. I'm over that now, at least I think. I walk alone, but Light is with me. Can't ask for more than that.

-- Palyne


When we understand that perception is as much about source as target; that energy is a spectrum and best psi perception comes from the center, its balance and blend; that the manifest communication of our Selves is the literal 'reality' we experience; that everything in that reality is a profound 3D language element; that insight with the ‘center’ of spectrum is likely to be via the language-symbols of 'reality;' that these need to be interpreted at the level they are received; this is the path for intentional psi.
-- Insight on the Art of RV

The Why of Fat

I can’t decide if the near-cartoon level quality of this makes it a joke, or if the fact that I had several good ‘rushings’ during it–which I have learned to consider one of the primary signs (not the only one) of success in a meditation–should say that it was worth something, though who knows what.

I said to IG, “I could do something else on this. I’m willing, I’m ready.”

She said, “Consistency is more important than quantity.” And I understood she was reminding me that you can’t always just do massive stuff at once, there are many reasons why doing things regularly over time is a big deal.


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at The Why of Fat
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/the-why-of-fat/

Tarot Nine 9 of Disks (Gain)

9 of Disks Gain

You’ve had my energy ‘open’ as you call it, for a long time, he told me. We’ve worked through a good deal. I realize he’s right. I began to meditate on this more than once and didn’t. It throws me, that you’re just a guy, I say. I’m getting to understand that tarot are each a truly massive, amazing quantity of energy and perspective. To see you as the archetype just a young man in blue jeans is kind of brain crunching.


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Tarot Nine 9 of Disks (Gain)
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/nine-9-of-disks-gain/

The Larger Aeon Round

I feel as if most of two months ‘off’ meditating is something I really needed. Like I was ‘overtraining’, spiritually. The arrival of the Largers in me really kicked my ass. I feel so much better now. Like I am ready for a new cycle.

I think I actually dreamed I blogged something that I didn’t, very recently, since I find no trace of it. By the time I realized I had not ‘really’ blogged it, it was too late and I’d forgotten it. That’s kinda funny.

As I was told to simply give them names, I have named the three Largers. Dominon (dahm’-ee-non), Pazyryk (Pa-zsur’-ik), and Rahleon (rah-lee’-on). The first one’s name sounds a little like what I’d come up with originally that I got laughed at for, sort of. And to me has some of the big/dominating element. The second is the name of an ancient people that the aspect of him I see, seems like he could be from. And the third is just a made up word, for the sun and a lion, which is a little of how I perceive him.

My sex drive has pretty much tripled from the time of their arrival. I thought it was some weird phase that would pass but it’s been a couple of months and it hasn’t yet. It’s almost shocking. And since I’m single it’s a little bit frustrating of course. My physical energy in general is slightly higher as well, though not so much that I


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at The Larger Aeon Round
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/the-larger-aeon-round/

Jungian Quickies

So today I finally just DID it. And previously when I had begun, I mucked around with various guides and archetypes and so on, but today, I started at the arch level and in about 6 seconds was just doing a massive, I AM cosmology, they are my components, I am pulling massive energy into me and ‘growing them’ (evolution) within me, I am integrating them with my will, and so on. This took about 35 seconds.

I was breathing so hard during this you wouldn’t believe it. The minute I began the med I started having rushing, and when I finally finished the pushing energy focus, I literally just sat panting, blindly staring into space for a bit. It was rather like sudden intense sex or something, I mean in terms of the WOW-effect.

Then I thought gee, if it only takes 40 seconds, does it count? (Remember I’m back to the meditation topic, here. haha.) I mean, does it need to be some long hairy drawn out super detailed meditation? If you can just club it with something — so to speak — is that just as good?

Here’s hoping. I really didn’t feel like there was anything left to do.


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Jungian Quickies
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/jungian-quickies/

Mercenary

I dreamed ‘symbolic of an aspect’ this morning. This is the first time I have had a dream and ‘known’ for certain that it was not only an aspect but that it was symbolic. Meaning, the dream details were not what really happened; they might be similar perhaps (no telling) but they were instead, something that was an ‘analogy’ to the ‘dynamics’ of it.

Several men were close friends. Long time friends. One of them specialized in stock market-type work, or something similar. He discovered a way to illegally use software to create a substantial effect in pricing. He talked them into joining him on this ‘sure thing’, waxing on about how they could make money, and everyone needed it.

So they were all together, actively investing, and making money hand over fist. He encouraged them to commit more and more, their family’s money, house mortgage, all kinds of things, as if it were a game of poker that took trade. They reluctantly and then excitedly did so, imagining what great things they were doing for their family as a result.

Then, without warning them–because it would have meant a bit less success for his own efforts, and he was without conscience–he ran this hack he had, and caused the whole pricing to crash, him of course selling just the instant before and making a killing, and them losing absolutely everything.

They were so devastated that one by one, each of them picked up their own gun and shot themselves


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Mercenary
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/mercenary/

Coasting

This has been a long break from meditative work. This is more a journal entry than an esoteric ref.

I did ‘breathe with’ each of my main contacts at the current era, yesterday. God, IG, The Four, the 12 Aeons, the 3 Largers (I couldn’t remember any names nor what the 3rd one was like), and it didn’t take long, just two long slow breaths imagining holding hands and touching foreheads with each. Simple, but I felt very nice afterward.

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I’ve been on a new eating plan for the last 10 days. Intermittant Fasting or “IF”, eating once a day at night, and PaNu (which for me is kind of a ‘dirty carnivore’ approach as one group calls it–I do eat some dairy) for the food. As is typical, it is very difficult to dominantly eat meat and get enough calories unless you have a helluva appetite. I’m trying but it’s a miracle if I make 1400 calories a day. This is a known problem though. I once carefully ate, weighed, measured, food and myself, and in 30 days of eating <1000 calories a day (but for one day of 2200), at the end of the month I had lost 1 pound. Which I got back the next day. I upped my calories to about 2200 and weight just fell off me. So I try to eat enough. I mention this because in my last blog post we talked about eating decently etc. It is sure a lot easier


This is an excerpt. Read the full article at Coasting
http://www.palyne.com/blog.psiche/coasting/

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